Book of Journey

"Meaning of Friendship is : if you cry because the sun has gone out of your life, your tears will prevent you from seeing the stars " - William Shakespeare

" Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love and something to hope for " - Joseph Addison

"the highest love of all finds its fulfillment not in what it keeps but in what it gives " - Father Andrew SDC

Today i have just found above quotes…and after a while i read these quotes, i feels it has greater meaning…

back to those uni times, where we were not having any complex feeling and too much thinking, all we’ve done is just for fun, and spend the time together with friends….our friendship bonding was sooo strong…

compare to now, each person is already busy with their own things, we can not meet regularly as before…and sometimes, since we have burried ourselves into work and lost in track, by the time you realise with the surrounding, you really have no idea of where your friends go, and whom you could rely on or hang around with. It is easy to find friends whom you can ask to go hang around with, to have chit chat, or just say hi and bye…but finding the true friends is really rare and it really has to go through long process to really know the meaning of the true friendship…am i rite?

Finding the true friends whereby they can accompany u during all your good and hard times, gives support, encouragement, feedback, advise, criticism for self improvement and vice versa is difficult nowadays. I have just realised that not all of friends is sincere as you have thought. Some of them will stay happily with us through the cheering time, but when it comes to conflicts, clash, our hard time, you will realise that their sharing value of friendship is not as deep as what you have expected and sometimes it will make you even more disappointed. Because you have thought during these times that they are ur closest friend.

I just realise now, that true friends is actually never expect anything from others. Sometimes you haven’t even notice their existence surround you. But during your hard times, you will just realise of whom will be your trully best friends…No need to meet everyday and so on…The most important things is the quality of the friendship that we have. Though we are apart, but we are close at heart. Their presence at your heart really can gives you strength, and support to be strong. So, eventhough we don’t meet regularly, but i can feel their presence around me most of time

I trully blessed that i can have best friends that always be around me, and their presence is always accompany me through all times…:P for all my best friends ^^…..luv u always

I was once, before, a quiet and shy girl. I did not dare to speak up in front of many people and was lacking of initiative. One day, my father had asked me to join this organization, named “Children International Summer Village”. He knew this organization through his friend, and his friend encouraged my father to send his children to join as CISV member. Initially, I was so afraid and reluctant to join because I am not used to socialize and mingle in the crowds. My thought was that people will laugh at me and tease me because I can not speak fluent English. I still remember the first time I joined, and looked into my other friends, most of them can speak English very well. I was even more afraid to go and always try to find excuses not to join this organization. Deep inside, I feel longing to go and want to attend the events; However, I am not sure whether I can build good communication with the rest of the member. Thanks to my father, he did not give up and always encouraged me to attend and join the activities. Day by day, then I can learn making good adjustment with my friends in my delegation and the rest of the member. I still remember the feeling of excitement when we made preparation for Indonesian – Norway First Batch Interchange Delegation on 1993 – 1994. We did learn “Rampai Aceh” Traditional dance, and play “Angklung” traditional instrument, which we’ll present on the mini camp for the “multicultural nights” events in Norway. Then, the day has come. On the way to Cengkareng Airport, I started to feel nervous again. So many things had crossed into my mind. My head was full with “What If” questions, such as: What if they are not really friendly? What if they will not understand what I am talking about because my English is not that good? What if my partner is not welcome and we can not get along very well? During my flight time, I was preoccupied with these thought, while others busy to play cards and games…I was really afraid, nervous, concern and worried of everything at the same time. By the time we arrived in Trondheim airport, the Norway Delegation had fetched us with full of smile, and at that time I realized that my concern was for nothing. I really had a good time in Norway and I do still keep in touch with my partner and my host family up to now. This interchange program really gives me such an unforgettable experience, which benefits me a lot to change my self into someone better. After I joined the interchange program, I am more energized and turned into a chirpy person. I got more confidence to speak up, more open minded, and have more positive thinking attitude. I also start to have new hobby that is having correspondence and getting more new friends and pen pals throughout the world. Due to my study and working schedule in overseas, I was not able to participate in CISV activities for more than 10 years. Now I have returned to Indonesia for good, and would like to start from the beginning to join in CISV activities again. Though I have vacuum from this activity for quite long, but I still feel the same proud of becoming CISV member, because CISV has made and shape my personality into someone I have become now. Thanks CISV!

Thanks God my mood is quite good today Meeting my best travel buddy, Aureine, after for sometimes haven’t met her and have been apart by distance between Melbourne - Singapore ( Previously ) and now Melbourne - Jakarta…hahaha ^^

As usual…when we met, the atmostphere changes from formal day into full of laughter ( with loud voice ), giggling, and getting fun just like we were in uni before…hehehe…talk of rubbish, gossiping, entertaining then also meet her friends, boe and boe’s friend…though just meet them for the first time, already get the chemistry and can get totally connected, click in the same tune ^^ in conclusion….nice to know more new friends

Today is my first time in 2008  to ever write blogs again contains of my life…well, everything has started at good beginning, so hopefully this year will eventually brings more luck for me in terms of career, friends, love, and family ^^

I am really feel happy recently, because i have found the really "me" again now…full of spirit, chemistry, lots of energy around me and always feel delighted and happy…

I guess, all these time, when i were overseas, i’ve always been lunatic, because i am really pushed my self too hard, and i only feel confidence to rely upon my self and not to others. Though i know it wouldn’t be healthy for me, but i force my self to be strong to carry on my life and i make my self assurance that everything can be handled just by your self and not by others help.

This situation is always carry on until i begin to enjoy it my self…spend my quality time alone, like to burried my self at my room, watch tv or dvd and sometimes listening to the music and reading books….At first, i truly enjoy it, but after some times, i begin to think that i really have no idea of where my friends are…i beginning to enjoy my time, my day without realising that i’ve been losing my social life…and therefore i always feel  lonely and something missing inside me…"the real" me, the "me" who always love to laugh and smile with friends…without realising that now i become such individual person, not really care for others and just being insensitive with the surroundings. I’ve become more and more self centered and that’s why some people thought that i’m quite arrogant…

After back to Indonesia again, i admit, the first time, i found difficulty to make big adjustment between me and environment…i don’t really have close friends to rely on or to hang around with…everyone just as "hi" and "bye"…

now i try to compile my long lost buddies again, so happy to be able to keep in touch with them again, share the storries and memories together…it really gives me more courage to start all fm beginning again, and socialise more….

This time, is really the time for me to learn, to appreciate my life…i feel trully blessed through all my experience, both good and bad ones, because whatever happened, at the end, i still surrounded with the warmth of my family and my friends….i love you all…..^^